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Permanent Fatal Error

by Jack Endino

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    My third solo record, reviewed very kindly by the few critics who actually heard it. Recommended if you like Skin Yard; at least 2 ex-members play with me on it.
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1.
Count Me Out 02:59
Ask me why I'm falling behind... Waiting and watching the days pass by. Over the candle I open my hand... Dying to meet you but there's no time. Tell me that you know the rules of the game... ugly inside but a fine warm smile. Don't even know what you've done to yourself... Obvious now but you just don't see. Wonder if I'll get away with it now... If you know the answer then leave me be. Yeah I could end up destroying myself... Looking for something I just don't see. Try not to laugh... it's only half... of what I think I see. I see them smile... and all the while... I see what they don't see. I got not time... I'm way behind... so COUNT ME OUT.
2.
Strangelove 03:56
Sit and wonder what century they're living for Good and evil are black and white behind that door Going back to our fathers' fathers' fathers' time Don't remember that eye for eye means going blind (Chorus) No one's asking me, but I don't like what I see Someone wake me up please this can't be real Men of crosses and men in suits are making plans Boys in uniform drawing lines in desert sand Do it right, make the world jump at their command But I don't like where they stand (Chorus) No one's asking me, but I don't like what I see Someone wake me up please this can't be real (Bridge 1) I spend my days hoping for the best But they think they're gonna ride their bombs to Jesus' side Think they're gonna ride those bombs to Jesus' side Feel like going outside and screaming silently You see it's all for them and none for you and me Rains of fire, our default foreign policy 'Cuz we're the land of the free (Chorus) No one's asking me, but I don't like what I see Someone wake me up please this can't be real (Bridge 2) I spend my nights hoping I'll wake up 'Cuz they think they're gonna ride their bombs to Jesus' side Think they're gonna ride those bombs to Jesus' side
3.
Elusive 02:26
It's elusive...
4.
I'm watching and I'm waiting as the wheel's spinning round Didn't matter what I tried to do, I've wasted all I've found But you know I'd do the same again... Got a hat like Oklahoma, but my shoes are only ten Some people need to be reminded: We're just ordinary men So you see I'd do the same again It's the only way for me (4x) So just what I'm trying to say here, is be proud of what you've done And remember as you spend your days: WATCH OUT WHAT YOU BECOME So you see I'd do the same again It's the only way for me (4x) (Bridge:) Run this life again Do no better then Run this life again Be no different then
5.
(Instrumental)
6.
Who's prone to take the lead You're not built for any speed No one knows what size you need Got food upon the table Your life's become a fable Got jars without a label... yeah Got lost along the way No time for you to play Not sure just what to say Those people telling lies Really comes as no surprise Let's cut them down to size Who knows just what is true And not only what is new You've got better things to do Now over on the edge It don't matter what you've said Some people think you're dead It's all become an act Imperative of tact The only horse you backed (Choruses:) It's only just an act, now over said and done The only horse you backed, just following the sun All over but the act, the rest is said and done Your bag's already packed, just following the sun
7.
Bait 02:20
What are you waiting for This thing's a wide-open door There's fun that we've got in store We're making plans for you You won't believe when we're through No one can do what you do If you see it now, don't believe it now... BELIEVE IT NOW We'll keep you on the run You know it used to be fun But still you look for the sun You bought it, take the ride We've got more waiting outside You'll live and feel like you've died If you see it now, don't believe it now... BELIEVE IT NOW
8.
Reach 04:45
Right, it's all right, are we all, are we all Here? What's gone wrong? In this place, close at hand Wait, the time's right, listen now, try to hear Talk, don't talk much, listen well, try to hear Say what's on your mind tonight (Chorus 1) Time has passed by Don't look now, don't look now Reach - your hand shakes Search for something, can't be found (can't be found) Eyes glaze over, try to search, try to see Lips are cracking, speak your mind, speak the truth Ask, don't ask why, don't look now, don't look now Wipe your slate clean (Choruses 2 and 3) Time has passed by Don't look now, don't look now Eyes glaze over Try to search, try to see Thirst for something Don't know what, don't know how Reach - your hand shakes
9.
Get Out 02:08
You won't find out what's in store Your mind won't listen to you It's hard to say if you've got time No better after waking (Chorus) If I see... A chance of not taking it slow The future inside that I know I'm back on the road So turn around and face your past I hear that sound you're making You don't want me to make a scene No better after waking (Chorus) If I see... A chance of not taking it slow The future inside that I know Get back on the road to my home (Bridge) Selling my life - selling my time
10.
(Instrumental)
11.
Waiting 04:05
I think I'm gonna bide my time Won't be a partner in this crime There's no monopoly on pain I'm not inclined to play your game It's coming clearer to me now I'll make it through somehow I'm waiting, waiting for you, I wait Still waiting, waiting for you to come around If everything is out of reach And there's a problem with my speech It's like I'm grabbing at thin air 'Cause like a ghost, you're hardly there You know exactly how it feels Don't want to spin my wheels I'm waiting, waiting for you, I wait Still waiting, waiting for you to come around Come round, get off the ground Raise your eyes to see No threat, you're not dead yet Raise your eyes to see (ALT) The world's small, and life is all Raise your eyes to see 'Cause life is out there and you've got to be strong Do what you've got to, who can say that it's wrong Make it through this and you can write your own song Save my let down I won't come round Confusing, not again Waiting for you, I wait Waiting for you, I wait
12.
Schwang 02:29
Say the same thing I told you before, get off my back What's the difference I'm not keeping score... you're on the wrong track (Chorus:) You with your answers are way out of line... I'll try to be different this time It's hard to believe you believe what you say... hope I stay out of your way Try my patience you're trying my soul, I'm not gonna crack Tell the family I'm not coming home, there's things that I lack (Chorus) On the outside there may be a chance, it's waiting for me Moving forward to find my way back, I know I'm not free (Chorus)
13.
(Instrumental)
14.
Hey, the insights I promise to tell you whatever they said that they'd say Say, the insides I promise to tell you whatever they tell me to say Sitting on top 'til the bottom drops out Watch as we come up for air Lifting the paper we see the design Ask me now why it seems fair Try to find versions that say what we want Rationalize how we feel Steeling ourselves to ignore what we see Telling ourselves it's not real You are the reason I'm standing out here Maybe you're too drunk to care Turning the page we can see the design Wonder if we can be spared (Chorus) Hey, it's not going down too well Yeah, it's not going down too well It's not going down It's killing me, I can tell Hey, it's burning my insides It's not going down too well It's not going down too well It's not going down It's killing me, I can tell Hey - I'm so tired I keep asking questions and only I get glassy stares I don't know the answer keep telling myself That's no excuse for despair Don't want you to tell me what's wrong and what's right There's no way that that could be fair I wish I could say I'm a better man now Ask me to help you but I don't know how Try to pretend you still care Just try to pretend you still care
15.
Take yourself back and down around until you lose yourself And when the light breaks in - confuses you - you bite your tongue But who can say just when you'll come around, the next rebound What's outside in is just the ending now, that's just begun Your eyes are blackened holes, your hands are cold, your skin is numb Looks like you found a place inside your head where I can't come The time is passing by - let it pass - pass away Don't let me wake you, let me touch you, let me see (Chorus) I can't believe that you're free See things I don't want to see And so you're bringing me down Bringing me down Your only life is winding down into a darkened hole Winding it down, winding it down And how much longer can you run and hide from sun and sky Beneath the leaves and grass there's comfort there beneath the ground (Chorus) Can't stand to see you this way Say things I don't want to say Because you're bringing me down Bringing me down
16.
Over and over, I'm killing my time Body feeling like the end of the line Food and sleep: things of the past Over my shoulder, they're catching up fast No ventilation: refuses to blow Ears are ringing like after a show Hands are shaking like a cheapo P.A. Got no windows where I'm gonna stay Hearing the same song, days without end Act like humans, I wish they'd pretend Too many wires, I can't see the floor And every day the assistant brings more

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My third solo record, on which I sing and play guitar, with formidable help from drummers Barrett Martin (Screaming Trees, Skin Yard, Mad Season, Walking Papers) and Josh Sinder (Accused, TAD); and bassists Rob Skinner (Coffin Break), Alex Sibbald (Accused), and Pat Pedersen (Skin Yard). "This guy invented grunge and he continues to personify it. But DOES IT ROCK? Fuck yeah." - Everett True. "Best stun guitar in the biz." - Chris Barnes (Hellride Music). "...Whopper of an album. Recommended." - Jackson Ellis (Verbicide).

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released January 1, 2006

Recorded 1993-2005 by Jack. Mastered by Jack at Hanzsek Audio (hanzsekav.com). All music/lyrics by Jack Endino (BMI). Cover design by Sluggo. Special thanks to Sluggo and Wondertaker Records!

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Jack Endino Seattle, Washington

Musician/producer, Seattle, WA. Guitarist for Skin Yard, 5 LPs '85-'92. Currently in MKB Ultra, Beyond Captain Orca, Sky Cries Mary, Purple Strange. Produced Nirvana, Mudhoney, High On Fire, Zeke, 600+ more.

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